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Went to the Saucer tonight as normal. Good times. Justin's back and that's always a plus. My apartment's parking lot is torn up as fuck so it was like a crazy maze getting through but I made it. Bill Maher is on Conan and is thoroughly enjoyable as always. Weekend ended up actually being pretty fantastic. Good times with good friends. Good shows and good movies. I'm still very surprised of those who still stay by me though we've had quite a past and didn't talk or hang out much prior to things becoming how the became. I needed this weekend and I don't think it could of possibly be any better given the many circumstances. Work was okay. Feel pretty shitty for my boss, Tom, and his family. His father in law suffered a mild heart attack Friday night and it turns out he has 2 100% blocked arteries and a 90% blocked artery. They need to do surgery but he ended up getting pneumonia and the flu over the weekend while at the hospital and so surgery is postponed and not looking well for the man. Terrible. I feel bad now exploiting my own endeavors but tonight, it's on. Me and Chris have made a bet. Who can the blow the highest on a breathalyzer... We are going to but a breathalyzer and plenty of Jaeger. It's on. I should pwn this given I can stay away. Liver... Get ready. You're gonna have to take one for the team. I love to win and I love to drink. Any pre-game suggestions? We've already made a rule we eat at the same times and basically the same thing that day. Well, at least 5 hours prior. Other than that, I don't have much to report... Except Bill Maher pwns. Goodnight.

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Blog one. Never know how to start this shit or what to say. That's why I never cared to do it before... But fuck it. Today is about what I imagined: me alone at a bar. Amusing night watching people be stupider than you could think possible. But that story has come to pass... Laughing at them was enough to remind me of my own chaotic confusion in life and what I supposed to do next. I'm emotionally and mentally confused. I thought things were mapped out but sometimes the worst things life bring out other things that basically kick you in the balls. Amongst my family, there are many other things I miss and don't feel I can let go of. Now, I'm scared to make any kind of commitment towards anything. Thankfully, time is on my side on this one. Time usually likes to fuck me in my ass without lube but I guess that's how it goes. Debating if I can really move to Missouri now... So much has happened so fast. I don't know now at all. What do I want? Where do I want go go? And who do I want there with me?... Time will reveal the answers in a short amount of time, but will it be short enough for my own sanity? We'll find out...