fuck everything

Alright I don't remember my blog log in, so you will have to deal with it here. Work pisses me off sometimes. Especially when I am trying to stop smoking... But what angers me more is YOU "America." Freedom? Hardly. Freedom to those who pay. I pay fucking taxes and I don't make shit. I make under 20k a year. Yet, when I have a good conversation with a guy who works hard to eat and sleep and STILL has to pay $8 for a bed at the homeless shelter (this is as far as Facebook would let me go) PISSES ME OFF. I had a good long conversation with this individual (30+ minutes and still wouldn't let me buy him booze) and it just infuriated me. He was just trying to get from the bus to the shelter where he called in (for a bed) some from other woman's phone. $8 dollars to sleep. $8 may be a lot (or little) to you and me. It can be a lot to me... But when a man is trying to get somewhere to lay his head, he deserves it. This man would not take a drink from me to save MY life. I hate the system and was so mad I gave him $20 *I* barely had. I have NEVER seen someone so thankful. I've bought booze, cigs, and most of all (unappreciated) food. But! My father (not God) taught me to love and to take care of those who honestly need help. I TRIED to get this man to let me buy him drinks. He seemed really cool and real. He wouldn't have it. He just wanted to get to the shelter, sleep, and try again tomorrow. Wow, what a great homeless person you may think?! Well, don't forget about the $8... I pay TAXES mother fuckers! And this man has to come up with $8 after everything?! Fuck you Mr. Big Man. That makes no sense and infuriates me. Not all homeless are homeless because they chose to be. Have a fucking heart. If you're unsure and they say they are hungry, offer to buy them food. If they decline, you win. If they accept, you're a better person and THEY win because they met someone nice enough not to be dick and write them off. That person deserves props for trying and being honest... So next time you're out... Will you help? Or will you be another "American" who takes care of "their own" just to fuck someone else over? Not everyone is as privileged as you. What will you do? I hope you make the right decision... Even if you think you were wrong.. you were right. They're in that position for a number of reasons must of us don't know or can't comprehend. Use your brain and think about what THEY need. We worry if we can buy a new couch, rugs, cigs, beers, couches, etc... What about being human and just helping someone out? You're worried about giving someone a few bucks who REALLY may need it just so you can save for your new TV? Fuck materialism. Try to take care of yourself, but make sure the people around you are alive. They're more important than your fucking new dining table with matching chairs that you will never eat on. PEOPLE make the world go around... Don't forget about them. And if you do, FUCK YOU!